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Batangas with PCC Personnel

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  The fisrt photo was taken by Ma'am Ana, she was so surprised how naughty I am with how I posed. Next photo is one that I consider performatice pose. The third one is a photo that looks that I am beonged with them but really I just photobomed with! Haha! I love it when the one they share is the one I photobomed with. I am grateful to be with these poeple. They are all amazing.

Clarity

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  Earlier this day as I woke up after my long nap, I received a message on my tablet that I got to settle with my phone. The problem is that my phone's batttery was completely drained and my charger was used by my mother. Usually my response was full of anger because of what happened. By the grace of God and I believe with Mary's intercession, I was guided by the Holy Spirit. I then took my spare charger and use it instead. Not only that I was able to charge but also I was able to settle everything. One of the virtue that I want to imbed in my life is clarity.  Growing up, I noticed myself wasn't able to communicate properly. I just say yes to avoid clarification questions. This time, I am so glad that I was able to say things with clarity. I believe the messsage is clear with my mom. I love her so much. I am hoping to exercise Clarity more in my work, relationship, and my day-to-day job. Yes it will require more of me to really know what's happening inside of me, the c...

This is what I signed up for.

            A little update with my life lately, I am now living on my own supporting myself with my teaching job as a High School Computer Teacher. It's not a smooth sailing. It's been a challenging spiritual, mental, and emotional roller coaster for me.            Lately, I've been wrestling with my own thoughts that I feel more alone now than ever. It somehow derailed me on my journey plus the timing of never ending workloads of my work. It overwhelmed. I can only cry at night asking God for forgiveness from all of the bad things I've done.           I am glad it didn't end there.          It's Sunday, it's a day for me to be alive again. Where I hope and long for the grace of God. I accept Him in communion, I gone through confession, and praised God for all the things he has done for me. The response is so peaceful tthat I cannot explain it by words. I am so g...

The Fruits

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God nourishes you that the fruit you bear may bless others. If your tree will be shaken by the quakes of difficulties Which fruit will fall? Or it will all just be withered branches and leaves. What impression will you leave? Before you even confess it, you are already forgiven, so don't waste your time on your own suffering. God loves you. All He wants from you is your repentant and changed heart. To leave your old ways who satisfy the world, and follow His ways that leads to goodness.   The change of heart will be seen on your change of life. Proven by the fruits of all your works. Because you are made by God to work. To show God's glory through your work. Plan the trees today. The trees on a frim foundation. So that when it quake difficulties shook you The fruits that fell from you, The of goodness, will feed the needy.

A Testimony of God's Love.

I am writing this as a testament of God's love for me.           In my previous days of living, I was constantly in a chase. Finding what's the next good thing. What could make my life easier? As if I should be doing something right now. Lavishing myself in spending, shopping, eating outside, and finding happiness in the external world. I never felt fulfilled. There's always something better or greater that I have to chase next.           Not until this night. Praying. Asking God for guidance and assistance. Truly, when you ask as His child, He will respond. His to mine was immediate. A voice called me, Share Jesus today. And I do to my brother. Then the Holy Spirit led me to hug my brother. I was like, Oh Jesus, you're horrible. Why at this hour or time? Then He said to me, “Just follow”, and you will be rewarded. I didn't let the time pass because I know that I may miss the opportunity. I did it.       ...

reflection and life audit

What am I even thinking this time?              Where am I right now? Am I better? What have I accomplished? What more can I accomplish? I just know that there's more I can accomplish. I can be more. The only person that is stealing me from that  from my future self is me.              If  I can lookback, learn, and evaluate. I am way too good for a short period of time and they I would drift off. Later on I will realized that I spent so much time drifting. I know God has better plan for me, Yet I always force things I decided for myself. Abandoning wisdom, a gift from God.              I am sorry for putting my woman together with my own misery, Instead of righteousness, Mama Mary pray for me that I may be forgiven, I get to put my woman in lustful situation. May you help me redefine my love for her for as a real love.           ...

Papa

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I said to myself. I will be successful, so that I can be a son to my father. Treat him to restaurants, buy him whatever he wants, give him gifts. But none of those really matters. Nothing will substitute for the real love a father needs. They need no cars or foods in fancy restaurants. They just want their child. To be with them. I just want to be a son to my father. To make him feel he is my father and I am his son who cares for him. I just missed my father. 

Get Back Again on Things I love Doing

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It's been day's now since I've not posted. Missed many days ad felt like I am no longer worthy of any advancement. Or I somehow lose all the progress that I built. Those thing that keeps running on my mind. I need to get back on my control once again.  I don't know exactly what I should do next. Probably habits, routines, beliefs, principles, mission statements. I am the creative force of my life. Wherever I am right now. I can still manage to get where I want. Regardless of  how long it would take. I know it. I know exactly how it feels. I am proactive. Above all, I have God who overcome the world. Anything is possible. I am not stuck. I am just blinded or somehow misdirected a little bit. I have the power inside of me to change my life into positive. My life seem tilted right right now, but I guess it 's a great thing since I can still see the whole picture.

Doing the Work but Not Getting Payed or Any Credit

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I am a private school teacher of a quite small institution. And you maybe  guessing it right away, we're quite understaff. And because we lack people to work on a project, as a teacher we are asked to lend some help for some.  As an ICT Teacher, I've been marked as part of called Research and Development Team, but basically it's just a team for marketing and promoting the school. Letting the school be known to others. It's quite a lot of task because the first projects are to create some brochures templates, tarpaulins, video plus a deadline not a strict one but of course put some pressure on the back.   And then questions came to my mind. Will I still do this work if I am not getting paid or won't get any credit from my works? Why does it feels like it is embarrassing to accept this job? Like "Pinapagod mo lamang sarili mo hindi ka naman bayad dyan. G na G ka pa." Why do I think that other people would look at me like, "Why are you so cra...

How's my relationship with God recently?

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Lately I've thought that I've grown lot spiritually. Like my spirit gets better. Little do I know that it is no brainer to tell such thing and I will always fall short to God's glory. It is God being good to me. Yet! I am not being good to Jesus. By reflecting, I realized that my relationship with God is one way. It's only Him being good to me. It's only me giving up my baggage on Him. It's only me putting on Jesus all my burdens in life. It's all me putting Jesus in my position for my sins. It's only me who Put's in the name of JESUS when everything my life falls apart. Its only me calling his name when there's stresses in my life. But when it's God's turn to call me by my name and He wants me to carry my cross. I turn my back away. I am closing my hearts to Him. Not until I need God again.  That's how I can describe my relationship with God.  Sounds....erggg right? But God is so Good. He always call me by my name. My spirit grown a ...

Masteral Program or Mastering Myself Program?

 It is first Friday of our teaching on our school and it ended with a half day for students and a seminar for us teachers. In that seminar, our school invited another branch of La Consolacion which is LCUP where they introduced a Graduate School like for masteral and doctoral. Amazing right? Just as how also they present the discount and the upside. On surface, it seems like it's really interesting to have that MaEd suffix at the end of my name. But the feeling didn't last. I know that it is not something that I want or impressed me.  For me I want something big. I want to really work on something. Something that would give value. Not something on thesis paper or added letters on my name. I think I better improve my skills or create my own business. To actually try, fail, and learn from it.  To actually execute and do something. To master myself and surrender myself to God's promise.

Confiscated Phones

 This school year I made a decision to raise my standard for how my student should behave on my class. As I am listening to a group for their presentation,  my students point out my other students who were just messing around with their classmates using their phones. To at least make them realize it was wrong,  As my class ended, I bring their phone with me for the next class, just a sign that I am bringing it with me. It's already 4:00 in the afternoon this two students were waiting for me. I have no idea what to tell them. Or how should I properly educate them. Should I just give it to them like I don't care at all? Guess what I've did. I've prayed. Asked God to show me His ways and He just did. It's a miracle for me. Proverbs 13 stands out for as I read the Bible.  A wise child accepts parent's discipline, a mocker refuses to listen to correction. -My students are wise to accept my discipline for them.  I love them.

Getting the roots done.

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In the past few years, I thought I was building the right foundation Then I realize I am at the wrong soil I got to dig deeper again Maybe this time at the right soil With correct actions and foundation It's better to start over again Than to finish a race I never really wanted. Maybe you ask that's much All those years weren't a waste There are tons of things that worked and didn't A vision being cleared and a path being paved. --------------------------------------- I was having an initial thought lately that by December, my co-teachers have done massive move to their being passing the LET. I noticed a pattern that I am comparing their career success to my whole being. It's my thought writing this poem. As my co-workers waving their stems up in the sky by December, I am building my roots. It's more likely that I'm seeing it in a negative way than positive.  In my own wisdom, I can upgrade my life in different aspect of my life like on physical or business....

Love Over Despair

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It was a normal day going back to our school faculty as a teacher when I tried to open my laptop. Unfortunately, it was not booting up normally. It crashes multiple times than I expect it to be. It' around 3:45 so I decided to continue fixing it at home. By the time I got home, I ate my dinner then setup my laptop to fix. I've got to do something on it.  Oh wait! I've got an idea. My laptop just needs a reset. Sounds easy. It does. But not on my laptop. It gave me such a hard time and frustration.  Normally what I would do is to watch couple or Instagram reels until I feel enough tension with my sexual hormone, watch pron and get into an endless loop of frustration. But not over last night. The Holy Spirit inside of me is so strong that it embraced my mind to do the best thing. My brain knew that I am just bored.  Instead of doing those thing that would lead me to immorality, I instead watched an inspirational film what was also inspired by the Bible. The movie series nam...

I am free. God saved me.

For years, coming from childhood, coming to highschool, senior highschool, and then to college, even on my first year working. Upon reflecting, I know that I am in despair and clogged into earthly desire. Sex and pornography is my biggest struggle back then. Not until I am introduced to Feast, many Sundays that I've attended I know that my relationship with God grows stronger every single day. Then I was invited in Jesus Encounter after having sessions with my Love Someone Today family. Hopefully there's a recording of what happened during those days. God is real. I submitted myself to Him. And He set me free from everything that I gave up on Him. He died on the cross for me. And now I am free.