This is what I signed up for.

         A little update with my life lately, I am now living on my own supporting myself with my teaching job as a High School Computer Teacher. It's not a smooth sailing. It's been a challenging spiritual, mental, and emotional roller coaster for me. 

        Lately, I've been wrestling with my own thoughts that I feel more alone now than ever. It somehow derailed me on my journey plus the timing of never ending workloads of my work. It overwhelmed. I can only cry at night asking God for forgiveness from all of the bad things I've done. 

        I am glad it didn't end there.

        It's Sunday, it's a day for me to be alive again. Where I hope and long for the grace of God. I accept Him in communion, I gone through confession, and praised God for all the things he has done for me. The response is so peaceful tthat I cannot explain it by words. I am so glad also to my woman (gail), I know deep in her heart that she is praying for me to turn back again to God.

        One thing I know now was that this feeling of loneliness is what I signed up for the first place. The void where I can think of such feelingis when I asked myself to work back done. Now I have so much time to work for myself.

        The path might get lonely, but I am never alone.