Writings and Poems of Franz

In the past few years, I thought I was building the right foundation Then I realize I am at the wrong soil I got to dig deeper again Maybe this time at the right soil With correct actions and foundation It's better to start over again Than to finish a race I never really wanted. Maybe you ask that's much All those years weren't a waste There are tons of things that worked and didn't A vision being cleared and a path being paved. --------------------------------------- I was having an initial thought lately that by December, my co-teachers have done massive move to their being passing the LET. I noticed a pattern that I am comparing their career success to my whole being. It's my thought writing this poem. As my co-workers waving their stems up in the sky by December, I am building my roots. It's more likely that I'm seeing it in a negative way than positive.  In my own wisdom, I can upgrade my life in different aspect of my life like on physical or business....

 People often see me as cheerful, soft-hearted, and stupid/ somehow ignorant (maybe I truly am).  I would say I am not. I am a very serious person. I am arrogant. I am stupid in a way that I am perfectionist that I ask multiple questions most of the time repeatedly to build my trust to any subject.  I set boundaries. I am brutally honest person. I have difficulties to say no sometimes but if I do, it won't be unapologetic. I love being misunderstood. I sometimes forget who I am and writings like this makes me remind me of who I am and what I wanted to be.

Sa babeng aking mamahalin,                           Kasalukuyan kong inihahanda at ipinagbubuti aking sarili. Kaya naman huwag kang magalala kung marunong ba akong maglaba o magkula ng damit.Kailanman ay hindi ko pagsasamain ang dekolor at ang mga puti. Magaling din akong magsukat ng sinaing o magsangag ng hindi naubos na kanin. Kung nais mo naman ng masarsang ulam, kaya kitang ipaghain ng adobo basta't habaan mo lamang ang iyong pasensya dahil sa youtube lamang ako natuto.                         Hindi ko alam kung kailan ka darating o makikilala subalit kung ito nga'y plano Niya, alam kong ito'y sa tamang oras at panahon. Sana lamang rin ay tama ang outfit ko at hindi ako mukhang dugyutin sa oras na iyon. Wala naman akong inaasahang lugar. Hindi ka rin naman siguro galing sa ibang planeta kaya't sa mundong ibabaw parin tayo ...

                 Months ago, I've decided  to write my own book. Then life came. It wasn't kind. There are so much resistance contrast to that dream. I wasn't good at English, my grammar sucks, words were redundant, or you might even encounter wrong spellings of words from my blog posts. (I would love if you'd correct me.) But damn it, I am commited. This might take some time, this might take a lot of work but the weight of my dreams is greater than the hardships I might encounter. It's been decided, I will go through an endless refinement and continous improvement. I will overcome my untrue limitations.                   In order to write this dream book of mine, I had to take it step by step, little by little.                  Back then, I used to journal my memorable days on a worned out pocket notebook that I've bought on a s...