There is no Escape.

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I am exactly where I am supposed to be. 


I feel like I am left out. Good. Shitty? Awesome. I cannot do this anymore. Really? But guess what? These things may be right. Or it could be wrong. This could be simply what I am feeling right now. I don't know.

What I am certain of is this. I am exactly where I am supposed  to be because of my previous actions. Cause and effect. I may say, I've been doing this trading thing for years yet I am still in the same position. But guess what, "What are you realy doing during those years?". Are you really doing the right thing? Are you actually trying?

It's cause and effect, the things I have right now and the circumstances I am experiencing right now is just the byproduct of all my previous action in life. So who am I to complain if the only person responsible for all the things I have and I don't have right now is me.

Which means, that If I want things be different for me, There's one thing that I must change. Only one. And that is Me. Me and all of the things a bout me. The work that I am doing, the things that I am thinking, the lens that I am seeing things. 

Accountability is key. I cannot escape with my past mistakes. Yes. I did wron things. I did wrongdoings and judgements. I got to stand up and accept.

What can I learn from those things. What are those things that I thought Ifude up. And in reality? It wasn't really that lon list. The blessing I am receiving and yet to receive is bigger that these things.

I love God for helping me see the better side. I just think that it's better for me to experience this sooner. Am I gastlighting myself? Probably. But am I in better situation doing this? Yes. Because over criticizing myself just constantly putting me into despair. So what can I do better? It's being better.How can I start beeing better? It is to look back on my past failures, trials, and setbacks. Find what can I do better and implement. Because I can do  better. I m not my past failures. I am what I am going to do about it.

I am 22 years old as much as I am last year. I am at the best time of  my life to remake, re-program, re-align my into a better direction. 

Ia eactly where I need to be. I have the things that I need in this journey. 

Thereisno escape. Only victory.

Seek and you shall see.  Ask  and you shall receive.


I am my warmest uperhero,

-Franz

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