I got to help myself.

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You know what? I realy wasn't that good person you've preaching. I did bad things in the past. Reay bad things. Played alot of woman's feelings. Inconsistent pursuits on many tracks. Addiction. Mismanagement of money. Procrastination. I don't know. I'm just reay feel that I deserve a of the negative things happening for me because I've been very bad on the past. 


I don't know how can be saved.

But at least I can write these things. This somehow ease my mind. To just let it out for my writing. I ust want to et it out.

I need saving. I am slowly kiling myself. I don;t want this. I want to get back on track. I want to have fulfilling track. 

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