Ulap

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para kang ulap

sa malawak na kalangitan
hindi maguhit ang palaisipan
mawawala at babalik nanaman

minsan nga'y bumubuo pa ng mga larawan
pansamantalang ibabalik sa nakaraan
ang tamis at pait ng nararamdaman

kulayan
ang damdaming hindi mawatasan
unti unting tanggapin ang katotohanan
hindi na ikaw, iba na ang kanyang kasiyahan
parang kailan lang
sabay pa kayong naglalakad tuwing uwian

doon kuwentuhan at tawanan pa ang palitan
sa kalsadang palagi nyong dinaraanan
kumpara ngayon sa kasalukuyan
tila ba wala nalang biglang pansinan

puwede pa bang ibalik ang nakaraan
at kung hindi na
may ulap pa naman sa kalangitan
mula akong maghihintay, sa unang ulan.

Ulap

-we all have this kind of love unto someone. Like how selfish I am to her before..I love her. And I was thankful that i realised it soon enough that I'm loving her condionally. It was awful. I was forcing her to love me back. I was trying to imprison her on a dream that only I could see. It's been a year since i distance myself with her. Seeing her now doing what she love, and having someone she loves. 
I didn't regret anything. I love the way she bloom. She's the most beautiful butterfly I've ever seen, the moment i freed her on my conditional dream.

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