Writings and Poems of Franz

With ths week's journal, allow me to use this also as my annual reflection and integrity report. Here I will gather up some questons and answer with all he things I've gotten through out the year. I'm telling you, as you start reading you will soon realized that this is just like my other journal. So please hang on tight and tag along. What are you feeling at the moment?     I feel mentally exhausted. I feel my head somehow aching. Pressing. What are you doing 1 year ago?      I am playing ,obile games, chasing pleasure, wasting time on social media. What are the things you are dreaming of before?     I dream of fancy things, I just keep on dreaming back then. What are the promises you told yourself before?     Promise  to be better?     Promise to not use people.     Promise to be a man. What are the If-only-if things you told yourself before?     If only I was rich.        ...

      I always encounter this kind of meme from the Matrix movie. Red pill or blue one? Make your choice.  First I wanted to thank you being here again and I appreciate you reading my stories and writings. This serves me as journal to reflect and to help me understand myself more. Hope this add value to your life too.     Things getting more difficult everysingle day for me. Starting the day with no push or the feel when I doesn't even want to start the day, wanted to sleep more. Do nothing all day but end up exhausted at night. It's tough. It's not what I wanted to be.      If I continue being like this, bad habits will compound. It will kill my time, my dreams will sink over time, and my soul cannot be found in no time.      I have two choices. Compromise, or Persevere.     Accept the thought that I cannot do anything. Deep dive into the illusion that everything will be fine. Sleeping at night praying, hoping for so...